Demi apapun. beberapa hari ini terasa sucks banget dan penuh dengan perasaan sebel yang diciptakan oleh orang orang disekeliling gw.
gw mencoba menghibur diri atau seengganya nyoba ngilangin rasa memuakkan ini dengan cara duduk di tempat terbuka, sambil denger musik. hasilnya nothing. yang ada makin fuckin' bitch. gw maki maki dalam pikiran dan perasaan rasanya mau mecahin suatu benda deh. apa aja yang bisa gw pecahin, langsung deh sini.
semua bahasa kebun binatang udah full nih. tapi tetep perasaan gw engga membaik.
gimana sih caranya supaya gw bisa rileks meski cuma bentar aja?!
heh lo tau ga gimana rasanya perasaan gw?!! yang jawab engga tau, i think you are so smart! wkwkwk. ya iyalah, gimana mau tau. gw aja belum cerita permasalahannya apa sampe urat kepala gw keluar semua kayak gini.
1. lo pernah engga berhadapan dengan orang yang lo sayangi tapi dia so selfish? dia cuma mau perasaannya dimengerti, kepentingannya didahulukan, tetapi kadang dia ga bisa peka terhadap gw. anjing emang. tapi karena gw sayang dia, gw diem aja.
komunikasi sama dia ujung ujungnya sakit hati, gara gara dia gamau ngalah; selalu ngerasa bener.
udah deh, kalo kayak gini gw angkat tangan aja.
2. mungkin karena ga ada kerjaan yang berarti, gw ngerasa hidup gw kosong.
3. ... kampret. bajingan. sialan. damn. I want to shoot that fuck person who makes me feel bad.
Desember selalu menjadi bulan terbaik gw.
tapi, desember 2013 menjadi bulan terburuk.
kebencian terkumpul di bulan ini.
I hate that one.. that person were succeed for making me sad.
that person really didn't understand that i just wanted to feel good that i have admitted something. but that person was only just testing me, with a stupid dumb idea.
you only make me feel down. you ruin my self.. you ruin my hope.
do you understand, that you are wrong?
the way you teach me, what?
you said you just wanted me to change?
have you ever realized.. it was wrong?
that's wrong. it becomes a silly thing which make me hate you.
I hope, karma will pay it backs.
you really don't deserve my full attention.
if you don't care to me, then don't make me feel bad.
i really hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. love turns into hate.
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dan one more thing. jari tangan kanan gw kejepit pintu kamar mandi, pendarahan dalem, ga sembuh-sembuh, dan senin besok tiba waktu ujian.
rasanya gw mau gantung diri deh.
